Not quite the title you'd expect, is it? It isn't that I feel my birthday sucks or anything, or that I feel disappointed in my gifts, or that I don't like getting older. I've only begun to feel this way since we've moved to Arizona. It seems that everything we do involves Eric's family: from monthly FHE, birthdays, holidays, they are even our babysitters (usually). (and I'm not saying that those are bad things, they are quite nice actually) It's just that all of these family events are one sided, Eric's family. So, as my birthday comes around, I also begin to think ahead to Thanksgiving and Christmas, and I realize how much I miss my family.
Birthdays were always a family event. And Thanksgiving was wonderful, all of the usual foods, teasing mom about her yams with marshmallows, grandma Seguine's cranberry salad, white meat and dark meat, and the usual pies. I've made cranberry salad here, but it isn't recieved with the same enjoyment we used to have for it. Christmas was so special growing up, and even later as we would come home for it. Christmas Eve was about the ham and dinner, about driving around looking at Christmas lights so mom could finish cleaning up from dinner and wrap more gifts, and about eating cookies while drinking hot apple cider or hot chocolate while reading the Christmas story in front of the fire.
I guess I just really miss you all, and I really wonder if we will all be able to get together again. I know we tried at Tom's wedding, but as we were missing Tricia and then half of you got sick, it didn't really happen. And since half of you live on the East coast, and half of us live on the West coast, it becomes exceedingly difficult to all be together. I am so glad that Ed and Jen and Dan and Tricia's families are able to spend time together (I'm a little envious too), and that I get to see Julie at our 4th of July trips to Utah. My only hope is for mom and dad's 50th anniversary, but that is still more than 10 years away.
Anyway, I am glad for the wonderful memories I have of our all being together in our youth. I know it was harder as Ed and Bill got older to even want to be with the rest of us. But I thank you, it means so much to me now to remember how much you loved us all.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Why my birthday makes me sad
Posted by Lynn at 8:15 AM
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I know just how you feel. I love being able to see Bill often, Ed and Jen with some regularity, and Dan and Tricia conveniently. I am thrilled that Tom and Heather came out in July and are coming back for Thanksgiving. But once all that is said, I miss you and Julie and everyone all together. Last night this house, all ready for lots of people and love and laughter, felt lonely and quiet.
We miss you too. We have to work on getting everyone together. Don't be sad on your birthday! Even though we can't be there in person - we will be sending birthday vibes your way!
(Just got off the phone with Mom) Mom says she retracts her comment about us and Thanksgiving (we aren't going out this year).
You're welcome to come out to our place for Thanksgiving. I'm not all of the family but measuring by weight or volume I'm definately more than 1/6 of it (probably closer to 20% or maybe 22%).
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